and you know it's gonna be alright

So, I've decided that life is all gonna work out fine. I pretty much have enough money for year one of college and have about 12 credits already, so combined with the other AP tests I have, I should be in pretty good shape. That and I'm beginning to think that I may actually enjoy it. Maybe I'll be adventerous for once. I mean, I'm already preparing- checklist:

• new laptop (love it!)
• printer (free with rebate which should be coming back any day now)
• record player (what kind of college kid doesn't have a record player?)
• CLAIRE!!!
• Carriage Hills (with camp people)
• big, fluffy quilt

all I need now is to graduate, which is nearly impossible for me to not do at this point...

Questions

so, I graduate in a little over a month, which is terrifying, yet I suppose, at the same time, empowering. Everything is set and planned out, it's all waiting on me. I'm not worried about summer too much, a little bit because I will not be able to staff as I wished to, but I think I can manage. Orientation scares me... Getting to college scares me... Meeting my roommate scares me... Going to Carriage Hills scares me (though I love the people there to DEATH)... Having to change jobs scares me... the chance that Claire might not want to hang out as much as she promised scares me. But at the same time, I will finally be without strings holding me anywhere - save myself, of course. But is that a good thing? Or do I still want those strings there? Will I be able to find people who I can relate to? Will Melanie and I remain good friends? What if I do hate it? What if I don't really want to do this whole Environmental thing? What's going to happen when I come home? How will my family go on without me? Am I going to end up all alone in a strange place?